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This is how I have felt since Christmas...you know that feeling you get when you think you are coming down with something...YUP-that is how I have been feeling.  We get the flu-mist every season and this is usually the extent of it---just a couple of  "off" feeling days.  Fingers crossed.  That mixed with coming off of my Christmas high...great combo.   Blah!

Tragedy Brings Out Beauty

This past couple of weeks has been a blur.  So many things going on -so much sadness and beauty.  Our community lost a true angel, Kelsey Michelson.  She was diagnosed with an inoperable brain tumor a year and a hlf ago and fought the good fight.  She touched so many lives in our community with her positive attitude and infectious smile and also taught so many young ppl the harsh reality of life and exactly how short it can be.  Then as Kelsey is being layed to rest another tragedy of a different breed unfolds in at Sandy Hook elementary in CT.  So many unanswered questions and horror.  I can't even begin to imagine how they are coping.  It makes me sick to my stomach and so depressed...yet I find myself watching CNN and all the news shows after the family goes to bed every night.  Then we are hit with a blizzard and there is an accident on I35 involvong more than 30 vehicles...one of which a young Mother (age 27) got out of her vehicle to check on her baby in the backseat and was struck and killed-she was also pregnant with twins.  I can't make sense of any of it... I truely believe that God hand picks the "angels" he send to teach us all lessons. I have seen it happen so many times. They say, "Tragedy Brings out Beauty"...and it does. The beauty generosity, love, support, friendhip, thankfulness and forgiveness. It is a rude awakening to some of all the "little" things that we take for granted each and every day.  I know I need to remind myself constantly to "not sweat the small stuff". 

 

It's that time of year...

I will NOT be a GRINCH....I will NOT be a GRINCH....I will NOT be a GRINCH.....why do I feel like the GRINCH????  Yes, here it is...THAT time of year...let my "funk" begin.  I really can't quite pin it down...why I get in a funk this time of year.  Instead of being happy and joyful I become sad and miserable...grouchy and "funky".  I know I should be happy and full of Christmas cheer...and I REALLY want to be, I do.  But my heart always hurts this time of year...because I know so many other hearts are hurting.  Even though nothing directly has happened to ME I can't help but think of all of the people who are sad this time of year...and that makes me sad.  People that have lost loved ones...children...have gone through a divorce...illness...so many things I choose to think about.  I guess it doesn't help in the least when you look outside and it is gray and all the trees, flowers, grass are dead either. What is wrong with me?  Why do I seem to take EVERYTHING to heart?  Why am I a negative Nellie????  Why do I watch Nancy Grace and 48 hours and the nightly news?   It seems that I can't escape these things-yet, I can...but I choose to watch.  These things make me cry...I guess I must like to cry and feel miserable.  I don't know where this is going...just rambling on.  I need to turn this frown upside down and be happy...how hard is it, really?  They say that being happy is a choice---I think I need to make better choices.... I will NOT be a GRINCH!