It's that time of year...

I will NOT be a GRINCH....I will NOT be a GRINCH....I will NOT be a GRINCH.....why do I feel like the GRINCH????  Yes, here it is...THAT time of year...let my "funk" begin.  I really can't quite pin it down...why I get in a funk this time of year.  Instead of being happy and joyful I become sad and miserable...grouchy and "funky".  I know I should be happy and full of Christmas cheer...and I REALLY want to be, I do.  But my heart always hurts this time of year...because I know so many other hearts are hurting.  Even though nothing directly has happened to ME I can't help but think of all of the people who are sad this time of year...and that makes me sad.  People that have lost loved ones...children...have gone through a divorce...illness...so many things I choose to think about.  I guess it doesn't help in the least when you look outside and it is gray and all the trees, flowers, grass are dead either. What is wrong with me?  Why do I seem to take EVERYTHING to heart?  Why am I a negative Nellie????  Why do I watch Nancy Grace and 48 hours and the nightly news?   It seems that I can't escape these things-yet, I can...but I choose to watch.  These things make me cry...I guess I must like to cry and feel miserable.  I don't know where this is going...just rambling on.  I need to turn this frown upside down and be happy...how hard is it, really?  They say that being happy is a choice---I think I need to make better choices.... I will NOT be a GRINCH!